There’s this really cute, lanky blonde chick that lives across the street from me and I always see her in the neighbourhood. She looks about my age but I know nothing about her.

I do however have absent-minded fantasies about asking her out,,,, LOL IN WHAT UNIVERSE. WOULD I EVER…..?? can you imagine.

I’m finally getting around to figuring out a way to back up my main blog. I would be absolutely devastated if my blog got deleted, knock on wood. That’d be 5 and a half years worth of memories GONE. Age 16 to 22.

I’m trying the import-blog-to-wordpress method, but it’s got around 40,500 posts to go through… as I type this, it’s so far imported 41 posts. l o l. It’s gonna be a long night. Hope it doesn’t fuck up and freeze/crash. *more wood knocking*

I kinda feel a little trapped when I’m surrounded by constant reminders that “narcisisstic personality disorder doesn’t automatically make someone abusive!!” and constant omission of discussion or even acknowledgement of the possible abusive behaviors that can stem from NPD

of course NPD doesn’t make someone automatically abusive towards others. of course not, okay? I’m not saying that for a second.

But it happens that my father, a.k.a. my abuser has NPD and there are things about his narcissism that are directly connected to his emotional abuse towards me and my mother. It just happens that he is narcissistic… AND abusive. Two mutually exclusive traits that can nonetheless effect the manner in which the other manifests. Meaning, the exact manner of abusive behaviour.

And I really feel like I just can’t even talk about it in depth because it’ll seem like I’m shitting on people with NPD or generalizing them, and I’m afraid my followers with NPD will think I hate them or something which isn’t the case at all.

I don’t think NPD should be stigmatized or stereotyped, but I also think discussions of narcissistic abuse, especially those constituted by victims, shouldn’t be disregarded or demonized.

It’s not a coincidence that a huge majority of the people on this website that have no grasp on queer history/queer theory and do things like claim “queer” is a slur that cannot/should not be reclaimed or exclude aces/aros, NB people, etc. from the queer community are usually age fifteen or younger.

These are ignorant, childish, ahistorical beliefs to hold… and it makes sense that they have these beliefs because… Well, they’re kids. Kids who think they’ve decoded every aspect of social justice at the ripe old age of fourteen and in turn refuse to consider the knowledge their more experienced counterparts possess.

Anyway, I began to feel a lot less perturbed about the whole thing once I began to notice the ages listed in the bios of blogs called “aphobe-spongebob” or some shit.

Listen it’s cool as fuck that my mom smokes & shares weed with me, but it’s kind of annoying our preferences don’t match up. She only likes sativa and I prefer indica. 

Typical stoner housewife wants “go-go” smoke so she can organize the entire house while high. I just want to look at memes on the internet and watch paranormal investigation shows on my DVR.